• manga,  Uncategorized

    MANGA: Kimi no Yoru ni Fureru

    Kimi no Yoru ni Fureru – Mori Moyori

    An assassin who cannot kill x a blind young man
    “If you knew the real me… you’d be disappointed.”
    Born into a family of assassins and living in a world of darkness, Chinatsu has been unable to kill anyone due to his past trauma.
    When Chinatsu’s brother died before his very eyes, a boy reached out a hand to him.
    That scene is still burned into his mind…
    While having the same nightmare yet again, Chinatsu happens to see the boy from that day, Kasumi, again.
    Unable to leave the blind boy alone, Chinatsu unexpectedly becomes his “friend”, but… Chinatsu, who suffers his family’s curse, and Kasumi, who despite his blindness is spirited and pure.

    This is a story of salvation that melts the loneliness of two people living in darkness.

    Touch Within the Abyss is quite possibly one of the most beautiful manga I’ve ever read. The story and the artwork have fragile beauty that takes the breath away.

    This is a story of a very reluctant assassin, Chinatsu, and his friendship with a blind young man, Kasumi. Unknown to Kasumi, Chinatsu was the young boy he helped five years ago when Chinatsu was forced to watch his brother die when Chinatsu failed to kill his target.

    There’s an air of melancholy hanging over most chapters, echoing the loneliness of Kasumi, who was confined in the far corner of their estate because of his blindness. He longs to explore the world and could only do so through books.

    Chinatsu is one of the best seme I’ve ever encountered, and Kasumi is the most precious uke ever! They are polar opposites. One deals with death, the other is pure and innocent. Yet, they complete each other.

    With the melancholy vibe, I kept expecting tragedy. Had it been tragic, my heart wouldn’t survive it. It is a deeply poignant love story, and so very achingly tender. This manga has gripped me hard and swept me away with FEELS!


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    REVIEW: Evolved by N.R. Walker

    Evolved – N.R. Walker

    In 2068, androids are an integrated part of human life. Big Brother no longer just watches from the shadows. It’s in every household.

    Lloyd Salter has OCD issues with noise and mess, and he’s uncomfortable with human interaction. When his ex claimed the only thing perfect enough to live up to his standards was an android, Lloyd dismissed it. But two years later, after much self-assessment, he thinks he may have been right.

    SATinc is the largest manufacturer of androids in Australia, including the Fully Compatible Units known as an A-Class 10. Their latest design is the Synthetic Human Android UNit, otherwise known as SHAUN.

    Shaun is compatible to Lloyd’s every need; the perfect fit on an intellectual and physical basis. But Lloyd soon realises Shaun’s not like other A-Class androids. He learns. He adapts. Sure that SATinc is aware Shaun functions outside of his programmed parameters, Lloyd must find a way to keep Shaun safe.


    This is the second time I try reading Evolved. The first time was in 2018, when it was first released. I struggled so much with the book that I DNF’ed. I still have the draft of my initial thoughts on it and already have a song for it. The review was pretty negative, and since I didn’t finish reading, I didn’t post it.

    I thought I try my luck again, and this time, I was determined to see it through. I would like to say second time’s the charm, but no. It was still a struggle. Though I could see the good parts, and they made it worth it.

    First, the plot is pretty standard for human/android romances.

    Philosophy professor and perpetual loner Lloyd Salter purchased a Class A Companion Android, Shaun, from SATInc. Shaun was programmed to be fully compatible with Lloyd’s personality and sexual preferences. Class A Androids are the most human-like of all the android classes, but Lloyd was starting to notice Shaun is evolving far beyond his Class A capabilities.

    My first reaction to this is, gay Absolute Boyfriend, anyone? Technosexual romances, or even just the usual sci fi story, almost always feature androids evolving or acting as human-like as possible. My Star Trek crush, Data, being an early example.

    I got pretty bored with how most of the plot revolves around Shaun’s androidness. It felt a lot like how older MM romances frequently revolved around the person’s sexuality. Maybe because I’ve seen it done a million times already, I would have preferred Lloyd be a bit cynical rather than being too star-struck by Shaun.

    Which brings us to the main character. The story is in Lloyd’s first person POV. This was a tough hurdle for me because I don’t like Lloyd at all. I don’t actively hate him. It’s just if we were boyfriends or roommates, we’ll probably end up killing each other. We’re the same and opposites in all the wrong ways.

    Lloyd has OCD and mysophobia. He is socially awkward and has only one friend. I could sympathize as a fellow loner, but I don’t like Lloyd’s sterile version of perfection. I want to introduce him to kintsugi so he could appreciate how flaws can make something perfect in an interesting way. He’d probably hate the discordant beauty of punk while I revel in it.

    And just like him, my lack of social skills and the scarcity of people who can tolerate my difficult personality, I wouldn’t be surprise if I settle for an android companion in the future.

    However, N.R. Walker is a master of her craft. The storytelling was engaging, the prose written in a way that makes it easy to read, even through some challenging scenes. The sci fi elements were well-conceived, and if Shaun got too technical in his droid-speak, it’s quickly translated into more understandable terminologies.

    At the heart of it all is the romance. And this is where the book outdid itself. Even with my dislike of Lloyd and even knowing Shaun is built to be the man of his dreams, the chemistry was still palpable, the romance sweet, and their connection soul-deep.

    Shaun was so charming he made Lloyd a hell of a lot more tolerable. I wished really hard that the story is written in his POV. It would be interesting to see Lloyd from a different perspective.

    Because say what I will about Lloyd, but the man has the kindest heart. The reason I don’t hate him entirely is because he treats Shaun with the utmost respect. I loved that he acknowledge his personhood because artificial though he is, Shaun can think, reason, learn, joke, and feel.

    The plot significantly picked up once Lloyd started worrying about Big Brother, a.k.a. SATinc, watching him. Things became more dynamic, and we see Lloyd’s friend, Jay, playing a key role. I really enjoyed this part because we see Lloyd and Shaun interacting with the outside world, and Shaun was having the time of his life. And charming people because this android is a ray of sunshine!

    Evolved is a mixed bag for me. The plot might be factory-settings basic and the MC is an acquired taste, but it is a story powered by a lot of heart. And that’s all that matters!

    Rating:
    3.5 Stars – that place between like and love

    Soundtrack: Binary Love
    Artist: The Rakes
    Album: Capture/Release


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    SOUNDTRACK: Binary Love by The Rakes


    Soundtrack to Evolved by N.R. Walker

    Binary Love by The Rakes for a book about an android who fell in love with his human.

    Don’t you ever pretend
    That we are more than friends?
    Despite the metal and wires
    I still have human desires

    I’ll wait here til the end
    For my dividend
    And when I turn off the lights
    I’ll wait here til the end

    Over and over she burns my circuits
    I feel fire rushing through my wires
    I can feel all the things that we can’t share

  • quote,  Uncategorized

    Don’t you ever pretend
    That we are more than friends?
    Despite the metal and wires
    I still have human desires

    I’ll wait here til the end
    For my dividend
    And when I turn off the lights
    I’ll wait here til the end

    Over and over she burns my circuits
    I feel fire rushing through my wires
    I can feel all the things that we can’t share

    When I hear your voice
    It fills me with noise
    Was this meant to be?
    Are you corrupting me?

    Can’t you just pretend
    That we are more than friends?
    Despite the metal and wires
    I still have human desires

    Over and over she burns my circuits
    I feel fire rushing through my wires
    I can feel all the things that we can’t share

    Over and over she burns my circuits
    I feel fire rushing through my wires
    I can feel all the things that we can’t share

    The satellites connecting us, protecting us
    Our makers have neglected us
    It’s not their fault
    It’s just the way

    Over and over she burns my circuits
    I feel fire rushing through my wires
    I can feel all the things that we can’t share

    La la la…
    I can feel all the things that we can’t share