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    Tsuda Memo – Hayakawa Nojiko

    Connected to “Endou-kun no Kansatsu Nikki”

    Basically about a guy trying to stop himself from touching a cute guy. Go read the main story to find out why.

    (source: http://ms.ninemanga.com)

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    Cronin’s Key – N.R. Walker

    NYPD Detective Alec MacAidan has always been good with weird. After all, his life has been a string of the unexplainable. But when an injured man gives him cryptic clues, then turns to dust in front of him, Alec’s view on weird is changed forever.

    Cronin, a vampire Elder, has spent the last thousand years waiting for Alec. He’d been told his fated one would be a man wielding a shield, but he didn’t expect him to be human, and he certainly didn’t expect that shield to be a police badge.

    Both men, strong-willed and stubborn, are still learning how to cope with the push and pull of being fated, when fate throws them another curveball.

    Rumors have spread quickly of turmoil in Egypt. Covens are fleeing with news of a vampire who has a talent like no other, hell-bent on unleashing the wrath of Death.

    Alec and Cronin are thrown into a world of weird Alec cannot imagine. What he learned in school of ancient pharaohs and Egyptian gods was far from the truth. Instead, he finds out firsthand that history isn’t always what it seems. 

    This is what Twilight should have been like had it not been so focused on that love triangle and tackled serious vampire business instead.

    N.R. Walker rewrites what we know of the entire human civilization, interweaving vampire lore into human history. The majority of the book sets about world building which, although info dumpy, was highly appreciated because the questions Alec asked were what I would have asked myself. Even with the info dump, the pacing was just right, with events taking place mostly in Cronin’s posh apartment, plus sojourns to Scotland and Egypt in a span of few days. The vampire Elders, Cronin and fated pair Eiji and Jodis (he’s Japanese and can read DNA, she’s Nordic and can freeze liquids), Alec and other coven members were researching and preparing for a confrontation with Queen Keket who wants Alec. Keket was a new vampire who can resurrect the dead and in the grand tradition of villains everywhere, was hellbent on taking over the world. The battle was exciting, however, I do find the Egypt part slightly anti-climactic because the vampire queen, was defeated a little too easily. There were heart-stopping moments when a couple of the major characters had close calls but overall, this part felt rushed.

    Cronin’s Key talks about the fated one, the ionndrainn cridhe in Gaelic, which explains the insta-attraction part. The experience was new to both Alec and Cronin and what I liked about it was that the two did the sensible thing, taking it slow and taking time to get to know each other instead of jumping into the nearest convenient bed despite the magnetic attraction between them. It was pretty cute how coven Elder and ancient vampire Cronin (ginger, Scottish, purrs like a cat)  gets all shy and tender then possessive and growly around Alec. Alec (brilliant NYPD detective, sarcastic as hell) tried to resist but couldn’t deny what’s going on between them. Some might not be into slow burn this slow but I enjoyed the dance of want and self-denial between the fated pair. When it comes to OTPs, I’m all for delayed gratification.

    History buffs, especially those into Egyptology, would enjoy Walker’s take on Egyptian mythology. MM readers would love the combination of insta-love and slow build romance. I enjoyed all of the above in addition to the humor, sarcasm, bad ass secondary characters and of course, outstanding voice acting by Joel Leslie, also narrator of Broken. Cronin’s Key was a veritable united nations of vampires but he pulled off each character really well.

    And oh, Gaelic for extra kicks! To my untrained ear, it sounds like a language with a lot of rrr’s, like a lion’s rumble. Here’s my favorite part, when Alec was attacked by the Russian vampires:

    Alec was pressed up against the living room wall, his heart beating so damn hard it felt as though it would stop. He was safe, he knew he was, because it was Cronin who pressed against him. His scent was like a balm, soothing and warm. Cronin’s hands pressed to Alec’s face. “Rug mi ort, rug mi ort,” he whispered over and over. It was Gaelic, though Alec had no clue what it meant. Cronin pressed his cheek to Alec’s. His eyes were closed. “Sàbhailtcachd, m’cridhe.”

    Which translates to: ‘It’s okay, I have you, I have you.’ ‘You are safe, my heart.’

    Rating:
    4 Stars – minor quibbles but I loved it to bits 

    Soundtrack: Rilkean Heart
    Artist: Cocteau Twins
    Album: Milk & Kisses

    (source: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/24830211-cronin-s-key)

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    I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)I am never without it (anywhere
    I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
    I fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)I want no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
    and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you

    here is the deepest secret nobody knows
    (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
    higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
    and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

    I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

    e.e. cummings
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    Omae Allergy – Mikami Haru

    Kanou Hiroto, a high school student, experienced sexual harassment when he was a child which led him to be allergic to men. Due to this, he isolated himself from guys until he met Ohshiro Kei, who approached him without knowing about his allergy to men. Ultimately, Kanou struggles as Ohshiro relentlessly pursues after him. Will Kanou accept this twist of fate to his life?

    Meh! Mediocre stuff.

    (source: http://mangasim.com)

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    Broken – Nicola Haken

    Author’s note:
    “For anyone who’s ever felt a little broken. Keep going – one breath at a time. You are important”

    When Theodore Davenport decides to switch his mundane job for a career, he walks into Holden House Publishing with enthusiasm and determination to succeed. As he settles into his new role, makes new friends, and dreams of making it to the top, everything is going to plan.

    Until he meets James Holden, CEO of Holden House.

    James Holden hasn’t been able to stop thinking about his encounter with the timid man he met in a club bathroom last week, and when he discovers the one haunting his dreams is an employee, he can’t seem to stop himself from pursuing him.

    Just a little fun – that’s what James tells himself. He can’t afford to care for someone who can never reciprocate, not once they find out who he really is. James believes nobody deserves the burden of being attached to him. He’s a complicated man. Damaged. Difficult. Demanding.

    Broken.

    Is Theodore strong enough to confront James’ demons? More importantly, is James?

    Please note:This book contains scenes of self harm, mental illness and suicidal ideation which may be uncomfortable for some readers.

    Audiobooks are what I am into nowadays because my eyesight is getting worse (devastating news for a book blogger). It’s quite a game changer, enhancing my literary experience through voices, accents and acting and motivating me to finish what I would have otherwise DNF’ed after a couple of chapters. Basically if the narrator sounds good and there are some fancy schmancy accents, there is a higher probability I’ll see things through to the end no matter how shitty the story.

    Broken is one such book. If I just read the blurb, I wouldn’t have bothered since contemporaries are mostly a miss with me but when I heard the opening chapter, I was greeted with Mancunian. So I decided to give it a go.

    And what a beautiful, emotionally satisfying book it turned out to be, resonating strongly due to some personal experiences. It took a while for me to get into it, mainly because James came across as an annoying, arrogant bastard at first and I was ready to drop the book but the witty banter between Theo and Tess won me over. James gradually turned out to be not such an asshole Theo made him out to be and there were some sweet and fun times that slowly ease its way into darker times as James finally gave in to his inner demons.

    James has type 2 bipolar disorder which is a very difficult illness to deal and live with. Nicola Haken wrote very accurate scenarios of how it is for both the patient and the people who love them. I marvelled at Theo’s strength and unconditional love. He never gave up on James and that is something a bipolar patient needs, someone who never gives up on you even if you already have.

    “When your boat is drifting from the shore, it’s okay to use an anchor for support. We all need an anchor. Without people to love us, we’d just drift further and further away.”

    Broken tackles complex themes but it’s not a heavy book. Haken managed to balance the darker notes with lighter moments of humor and romance. It shares a hopeful message that yes, we might not get cured but we will be okay.

    Rating:
    4.5 – perfection is only half a step away

    Soundtrack: Maybe Tomorrow
    Artist: Stereophonics
    Album:

    You Gotta Go There to Come Back

    (source: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/20646135-broken)

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    Fighting your inner demons,
    Fighting that inner war.
    Not knowing what’s wrong or right.
    Asking yourself, “How much more?”

    How many more endless questions?
    How many more sleepless nights?
    How much more can I take,
    Of life and it’s enternal fight?

    Trying to heal your pain.
    Somehow you can break the broken.
    People come but never stay.
    No one listens to what you’ve spoken.

    Love. Trust. Safety. Hope.
    It’s gone and fled away.
    You have nothing left to your name,
    But the scars that always stay.

    Inferiorty. This is all you feel.
    No matter what you do,
    You’re never good enough.
    And no one has a clue.

    No one knows,
    How you tear yourself apart.
    They don’t know
    About your abused heart.

    They’ll never understand
    The hate for yourself.
    They’ll never see
    Your mental health.

    You want to believe.
    Believe you’re worth something.
    Believe you’re a good person.
    Believe you’re worth loving.

    But the louder voice denies this.
    It tells you no one cares.
    That you’re a terrible person.
    All you’re doing is wasting air.

    Inner demons, inner war.
    I’m in the middle of it all.
    Pulling myself together,
    Knowing all I’ll do is fall.

    Celine Alesha Chadee