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    You look like you could do with a friend she said
    You look like you could use a hand
    Someone to make you smile she said
    Someone who can understand
    Share your trouble
    Comfort you
    Hold you close
    And I can do all of these
    I think you need me here with you
    You look like you do with a sister she said
    You look like you need a girl to call your own

    Like fabulous! fabulous!
    Call me fabulous!
    And rubbing her hands so slow
    You stare at me all strange she said
    Are you hungry for more?
    I’ve had enough I said
    Please leave me alone
    Please go

    It doesn’t touch me at all
    It doesn’t touch me at all

    You know that you could do with a friend she said
    You know that you could use a word
    Like feel or follow or fuck she said
    And laughing away as she turned
    You’ve everything but no-one
    Like the last man on earth
    And when I die I said
    I’ll leave you it all
    Door closes
    Leaves me cold

    It doesn’t touch me at all
    It doesn’t touch me at all

    You really do need a sister she said
    You really do need a girl to call your own

    Like wonderful! wonderful!
    Call me wonderful!
    And running her hands so slow
    You stare at me all strange she said
    Are you hungry for more?
    I’ve had enough I said
    Please leave me alone
    Please go
    Please go

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    REVIEW: Captivated by Brittany Cournoyer

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    Out of Darkness: Captivated – Brittany Cournoyer

    Ethan Fletcher’s a rising star in the modeling industry, and after landing an ad on a billboard, things were looking up for him. From the outside looking in, he was living his best possible life. No one knows the struggles Ethan faced, or that every night he removed the carefully constructed mask he had to slip on just to face the outside world. However, the camera wasn’t the only thing in love with Ethan’s face.

    When the gifts started to arrive, they seemed innocent enough. But, the attention from the fan who called himself The Suitor had Ethan on edge, and when someone important in Ethan’s life goes missing, he knows it’s no coincidence. Receiving no help from the local police, Ethan seeks comfort from a very unlikely source. Together, they find themselves in a race against time to catch The Suitor before Ethan becomes his next victim.

    Captivated is book 1 in the Out of Darkness series. It talks about stalking, kidnapping, murder, and mental illness. Captivated ends with a happy for now and is a continuing series. This book is an extremely slow burn with a romance that progresses throughout the series.


    Captivated is a story of an all-consuming obsession that tortured, maimed and killed.

    Ethan Fletcher is a model who is so beautiful he mesmerized the enigmatic and very disturbed individual simply known as The Suitor. Very little is known of the man apart from the fact that he owns a cyber security company, is devoted to his cat and loves to woo men with expensive gifts.

    He tried the same method with Ethan. However, Ethan was not the type to be wowed by expensive shoes. Because The Suitor was not the type to take rejection easily, he started taking drastic measures with tragic results.

    At first, I thought, hey, maybe this Suitor guy had some redeeming qualities and he will end up with Ethan like one of those Criminal Delights stories.

    I couldn’t be more wrong.

    The man was pure evil. Nobody could forgive what he did to poor B, just because B did Ethan a favor.

    Ethan is a model attempting to break into acting. He doesn’t do well with crowds and has social anxiety. Ethan loves working on his puzzles to calm his nerves. The model is a lonely man whose only friend was his agent, Beatrice a.k.a. B. Later on, Ethan discovered he had a friend in X, another model B handles and who he did not get along with at first.

    My heart went out to Ethan. Bad enough he had to deal with anxieties, now he has a crazy man out to get him. On top of that, the police was not be taking the model seriously. The only person who actually seemed to care was X.

    X had some surprises of his own, starting with the mystery of why he prefers to be called X. He liked helping Ethan with his puzzles and introduced him to his own version of grilled cheese sandwich. He was a solid guy who used his considerable pull to make the police move their damn asses and start doing something about Ethan’s case.

    There is no romance in the story. I’m kind of hoping the author would make Ethan aro and/or ace, but as per blurb, the romance in the series is extremely slow-paced. And from here on out, I’m rooting for an Ethan+X merger.

    The writing felt simultaneously slow and fast. The character progression and developments came slowly but the tension was tight and had me on full on suspense mode which made things go quickly. The book presented both Ethan’s and The Suitor’s POVs which made it even more creepy.

    The ending resolved enough threads to give a satisfying conclusion. The Suitor was named. Ethan had the help he needed. He and X had an appointment with grilled cheese sandwiches. It also left teasers hinting The Suitor has more gifts to send. I cannot wait for the next one. I’m also dreading it.

    This is my first Brittany Cournoyer and certainly won’t be the last. She did a great job creating a gripping thriller that constantly kept me on the edge of my seat. It’s a chilling portrait of what stalkers will do to get the object of their desire. Recommended if you like dark, depraved bastards with offers one cannot refuse and bright, beautiful men who dared to say no.

    Rating:
    4.5 Stars – perfection is only half a step away

    Soundtrack: Gonna Get Close to You
    Artist: Dalbello
    Album: whomanfoursays

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    REVIEW: Devil Next Door by Alex Jane

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    Criminal Delights: Obsession: Devil Next Door – Alex Jane

    All Remy Harker wants is a fresh start. 

    Well, maybe that’s what he tells himself as he rolls up to his nice new house, in the nice little neighborhood, in a town where nobody knows his name. 
    He’s surrounded by friendly neighbors and a white picket fence. The ugly pink carpet might drive him to insanity, and he can’t stop wondering where the old lady who lived there before him died—but it’s nice. 
    And if he puts his mind to it, he can be anything—or anyone—he wants to be. He can be nice too. 
    At least, he thinks he can until he lays eyes on his next-door neighbor. 

    Luke Boucher is nice. 
    And quiet. 
    And perfect. 

    It doesn’t take long for Remy to insinuate himself into Luke’s life. A camera here, a break-in there. 
    – It’s not really stalking if you love someone, is it? –

    But when Remy’s plan to make a good impression goes to hell, he ends up over his head in more ways than one. Then things aren’t quite so nice anymore. 
    – It’s not really murder if you love someone, is it? –

    Loving your neighbor isn’t so easy when you’re the devil next door.

    *****

    This book is part of CRIMINAL DELIGHTS. Each novel can be read as a standalone and contains a dark M/M romance.

    Warning: These books are for adult readers who enjoy stories where lines between right and wrong get blurry. High heat, twisted and tantalizing, these are not for the fainthearted.

    This has the makings of a truly dark romance. Twisted, bloody and psychopathic.

    But it lacked a certain oomph.

    The oomph being Remy and Luke making it to my favorites list.

    Remy and Luke, being what they are, could have easily made it but they didn’t quite have the intensity of fan favorites, Lecter and Graham. They were good though, I give them that.

    The book started normal enough, mundane even as Remy goes about his business setting up his house, installing surveillance equipment, taking notes, and following Luke around. Remy was meticulous and careful but was completely caught off guard when Luke broke his pattern. The mystery of why Remy thought Luke was ‘the one’ had me on the edge of my seat. At the same time, since the story was all about pushing boundaries, I already have an inkling of what Luke really was (because what else would he be short of a homo Humbert Humbert) but, still, it didn’t detract from the pleasure of the big reveal.

    From then on, the story plunged even deeper into macabre territories. It wisely veered away from the gratuitous, providing only enough blood and gore to get that taboo aspect going but not too much to be considered full-on horror. But maybe, YMMV. Remy’s talent for research and surveillance worked in perfect tandem with Luke’s proclivities and their partnership and romance are major goals if it weren’t for the fact they get off at things that disturb most of us. Despite the gruesomeness of the events, you cannot help but root for these two men who were simply made for each other.

    All in all, Devil Next Door is a total yandere. Creepily kind, unnaturally patient and unfailingly polite until they flip the switch and suddenly you’re staring into the eyes of a ‘ferocious angel draped in bloody violence‘. It is completely unhinged and I loved it.

    Rating:
    4 Stars – minor quibbles but I loved it to bits

    Soundtrack: Neighbor Boy
    Artist: Andrea Marie
    Album: Here Begin