• song,  Uncategorized

    SOUNDTRACK: Bakemono by Yoasobi, Vanilla by Gackt, Inhuman Empathy by Amazarashi, & Beautiful Monster by Art School

    Soundtrack to Demon Bound: Wreaking Havoc by Grae Bryan

    Bakemono by Yoasobi for a book about a mobster son trying to live a normal life while the world is out to get him.

    To live a clean and tidy life
    To live without make anyone sad
    To live on the straight and narrow without standing out
    Is that how you live without making any mistakes?
    Is it right to live how you are
    Or is it right to live a deceitful lie
    Just what type of person should I try to be?
    Just what type of person am I really?
    Please, tell me
    I’m begging you to tell me

    Soundtrack to Demon Bound: Inviting Bedlam by Grae Bryan

    Vanilla by Gackt for a book about lust to love to healing.

    May I love you in this trembling night?
    Just like this… “I’ve seen a tail”
    It’s almost embarrassing, I’ve fallen for you.
    A crew sees cring knees
    I wanna need… Not betray!
    Would it be ok to love, too, in this gyrating night?
    Just like this… Harder, deeper…
    As pelvic thrust that are insanely familiar to the act, melt with each other…
    You are… My… Caretaker.

    Soundtrack to Demon Bound: Calling Chaos by Grae Bryan

    Inhuman Empathy by Amazarashi for a book about freedom from the past, stepping out the comfort zone and embracing new adventures.

    Tonight,

    though we’ve never had a beautiful past,

    though it’s been full of failures, I want to believe they weren’t so bad.

    We board an unfamiliar ship so that we can say it without guilt.

    We all head to different countries, each as an outsider of this world.

    Even without having been able to choose our places of birth, let us choose where we can live.

    Soundtrack to Demon Bound: Unleashing Mayhem by Grae Bryan

    Beautiful Monster by Art School for a book about a scared, unloved young man stopped hiding and started living.

    With the pale sun We, who are pale, Dreaming of Invisibility It was always like that Don’t be foolish Even you I think I can become a swan I just feel like that

    I have lived without being loved We messed up But what about today? It seems to be forgiven. Don’t be foolish Even you I can’t die, something now That’s how I feel

    I can see the new sunset
    You can see the new sunset

  • quote,  Uncategorized

    素晴らしき世界に今日も乾杯
    街に飛び交う笑い声も
    見て見ぬフリしてるだけの作りもんさ
    気が触れそうだ
    クラクラするほどの良い匂いが
    ツンと刺した鼻の奥
    目を覚ます本能のまま
    今日は誰の番だ?
     
    この世界で何が出来るのか
    僕には何が出来るのか
    ただその真っ黒な目から
    涙溢れ落ちないように
     
    願う未来に何度でもずっと
    喰らいつく
    この間違いだらけの世界の中
    君には笑ってほしいから
    もう誰も傷付けない
    強く強くなりたいんだよ
    僕が僕でいられるように
     
    素晴らしき世界は今日も安泰
    街に渦巻く悪い話も
    知らない知らないフリして目を逸らした
    正気の沙汰じゃないな
    真面目に着飾った行進
    鳴らす足音が弾む行き先は
    消えない消えない味が染み付いている
    裏側の世界
     
    清く正しく生きること
    誰も悲しませずに生きること
    はみ出さず真っ直ぐに生きること
    それが間違わないで生きること?
    ありのまま生きることが正義か
    騙し騙し生きるのは正義か
    僕の在るべき姿とはなんだ
    本当の僕は何者なんだ
    教えてくれよ
    教えてくれよ
     
    今日も
    答えのない世界の中で
    願ってるんだよ
    不器用だけれど
    いつまでも君とただ
    笑っていたいから
    跳ねる心臓が
    体揺らし叫ぶんだよ
    今こそ動き出せ
     
    弱い自分を何度でもずっと
    喰らい尽くす
    この間違いだらけの世界の中
    君には笑ってほしいから
    もう誰も泣かないよう
    強く強くなりたいんだよ
    僕が僕でいられるように
     
    ただ君を守るそのために
    走る走る走るんだよ
    僕の中の僕を超える

    Today again, In this wonderful world, the sound of ‘cheers!’
    And laughter flitting about this town
    Are all pretenses to fake how no one knows anything
    It drives me insane
    A tempting smell that makes me all dizzy
    Drives deep into the back of my nose
    And as my eyes and instincts snap awake
    I wonder, whose turn is it today?

    In this world where anything is possible
    What could someone like me possibly do?
    Yet, so that those dark black eyes
    Don’t fill with tears

    Over and over again, I sink my teeth
    Into the future I wish for
    Because in this world riddled with mistakes
    I want to make sure you can smile
    I don’t want to hurt anyone anymore
    And that’s why I want to get stronger, even stronger
    So that I can stay myself

    Today again, in this wonderful world, the tranquillity
    Mixing with the ugly rumors in this town
    Makes people go “No idea, no idea,” while diverting their gazes
    It’s all so crazy
    The parade is dressed up all seriously
    Footsteps beating as they bound toward their destination
    Which has a taste sunk into it that’ll never, ever go away –
    It’s the world of the other side

    To live a clean and tidy life
    To live without make anyone sad
    To live on the straight and narrow without standing out
    Is that how you live without making any mistakes?
    Is it right to live how you are
    Or is it right to live a deceitful lie
    Just what type of person should I try to be?
    Just what type of person am I really?
    Please, tell me
    I’m begging you to tell me

    Today, too
    In this world that doesn’t have any answers
    I’m praying and begging
    No matter how stupid that is
    Because I just want to always
    Stay smiling with you ’til the end
    My heart leaps
    As I yell, my body shaking
    Right now’s the time to leap into action

    Over and over again, I sink my teeth
    Into my weakly self
    Because in this world riddled with mistakes
    I want to make sure you can smile
    I don’t want to lose anyone anymore
    And that’s why I want to get stronger, even stronger
    So that I can stay myself

    I just want to protect you – and that’s why
    I’m running, running, running
    So that I can overcome the “me” inside myself

    君は誠実なmoralist 綺麗な指でボクをなぞる

    僕は純粋なterrorist キミの想うがままに 革命が起きる

    恋に縛られたsupecialist 長い爪を立てられたボク

    愛を確かめたいegoist キミの奥までたどりつきたい

    君の顔が遠ざかる

    ah ボクがボクで無くなる前に

    愛してもいいかい? 揺れる夜に

    あるがママでいいよ もっと 深く

    狂おしいくらいに慣れた唇が 溶け合うほどに

    ボクは… キミの… Vanilla

    「…ナンテ気取りすぎ」 そんなcoolなキミはplastic

    熱い眼差しにはecologist その燃えるくちづけがもどかしい

    歪んでいくキミの顔が

    ah 僕がボクでいられマスように

    愛してもいいかい? 揺れる夜に

    あるがママでいいよ もっと 速く

    苦しいくらいに 濡れた唇が 言葉なんてもう

    君と… 僕not… Burning love

    ah いくつ朝を迎えれば ah 夜は終わるのだろうか

    ah 空に散りばめられた ah 白い花にかこまれていく

    愛してもいいかい? 揺れる夜に

    あるがママでいいよ 「I’ve seen a tail.」

    悔しいくらいに キミにハマってるのに

    A crew sees cring knees,

    I wanna need. Not betray!!

    愛してもいいかい? 揺れる夜に

    あるがママでいいよ もっと 君を

    狂おしいくらいに慣れた腰つきが  溶け合うほどに

    君は… ボクの… 番人だ

    You are a sincere moralist.
    You touch me with your pretty fingers.
    I am like a pure terrorist,
    Revoloutions are occuring as you wish.

    A speciallist bound in romance,
    Your long fingernails get me erect.
    An egoist who wants you to love me,
    I want to struggle until I’m deep inside you.

    You keep pulling your face away from mine,
    Ah, before I lose my mind…

    Would it be ok to love, too, in this trembling night?
    Just like this… Harder, deeper…
    At the grind of your lips claiming mine,
    I am… Your… Vanilla.

    “You’re getting too involved” You’re cool, like plastic.
    An ecologist caught in a hot glance,
    I’m impatient, waiting for your burning kiss.

    Your distorting face is…
    (Ah I’ll do it myself.)

    Would it be ok to love, too, in this trembling night?
    Just like this… Harder, faster,
    Painfully familiar lips, don’t need words…
    You and I are not burning love.

    Ah how many mornings have we greeted together?
    Ah does this night ever have to end?
    Ah spreed across the sky…
    Ah white flowers surround us and die.

    May I love you in this trembling night?
    Just like this… “I’ve seen a tail”
    It’s almost embarrassing, I’ve fallen for you.
    A crew sees cring knees
    I wanna need… Not betray!
    Would it be ok to love, too, in this gyrating night?
    Just like this… Harder, deeper…
    As pelvic thrust that are insanely familiar to the act, melt with each other…
    You are… My… Caretaker.

    自分欺き嘘つくのはどんな気分だい 下らなくて泣けてくる最低だよ

    新品にいっそ交換はできないもんかね 9Vの電池みたいに人生も

    僕ら始めようとしてる じっと待ってたわけじゃない

    信頼に足る未来を選んでただけ ずっと

    今夜

    美しい過去を持てなかった僕らは

    失敗ばかりだったけど 悪くない失敗だったと

    疚しさなく言えるように 見知らぬ船に乗り込む

    人とは違う国へ この世の余所者として

    生まれた場所は選べずとも 生きる場所は選ばせてくれ

    インヒューマン インヒューマン 叫べ

    血液の代わりに血管を流れている メランコリーが傷口から溢れぬよう

    社会性の絆創膏を張り替えたら 通勤電車も痛くない 痛くないよ

    せ不幸せを定義するから 優劣に成り下がる

    審判は傲慢な選別だ きっと

    今夜

    美しい過去を持てなかった僕らは

    昨日に目を塞ぐから 明日も見えないと泣いて

    それでも手探りでゆく ここが暗闇な訳じゃない

    僕ら自身の太陽が 各々の場所にあるだけ

    生まれた場所は選べずとも 生きる場所は選ばせてくれ

    インヒューマン インヒューマン 叫べ

    下らない毎日に付箋の代わりに 情熱と没頭を夥しく挟み

    下らない鬱屈にアンダーラインを引き 言い訳と抗弁、肯定のコラージュ

    ねえ まだ足りない 欠けた過去埋め合わせる 説き伏せるもの ああ

    今夜

    美しい過去を持てなかった僕らが

    美しい今を掴むとしたら 汚れたこの手だ

    見捨てた全てに笑う せいせいしたと手を振る

    勝ちや負けなんか通じない この世の余所者として

    生まれた場所は選べずとも 生きる場所は選ばせてくれ

    インヒューマン インヒューマン 叫べ

    What does it feel like to lie to and deceive yourself? It’s the worst– the most worthless thing to make you cry.

    Is it possible to just swap it out for a new feeling? And this life too, just like you would a 9V battery.

    We’re trying to start it. It’s not like we’ve just been sitting still.

    We’ve just always been choosing a future that we could trust.

    Tonight,

    though we’ve never had a beautiful past,

    though it’s been full of failures, I want to believe they weren’t so bad.

    We board an unfamiliar ship so that we can say it without guilt.

    We all head to different countries, each as an outsider of this world.

    Even without having been able to choose our places of birth, let us choose where we can live.

    Inhuman, inhuman scream.

    Just like the melancholy that runs through my veins in place of blood doesn’t flow out from any wound,

    if you put a new bandaid on society, not even the train to work will hurt. It won’t hurt.

    Because we define happiness and unhappiness, we’ve fallen into a hierarchy.

    The judge is arrogant in his classification. Surely.

    Tonight,

    we, who’ve never had a beautiful past,

    turn our eyes from yesterday and cry that we’ve lost sight of tomorrow.

    Even so, we fumble towards it blindly. But it’s not like this place is all darkness either.

    Our suns are just at our own respective places.

    Even without having been able to choose our places of birth, let us choose where we can live.

    Inhuman, inhuman scream.

    Instead of sticky notes in your worthless daily life, hold passion and devotion between your fingers.

    A collage of excuses, protests, and affirmations underline the worthless gloom.

    Hey, it’s not enough. We need more to convince us to make up for our chipped pasts.

    Tonight,

    though we’ve never had a beautiful past,

    we’re going to grab the beautiful now with these dirtied hands.

    We’ll smile at everything we’ve abandoned. Wave goodbye as is proper.

    We won’t understand when you talk of winning and losing. Not as outsiders of this world.

    Even without having been able to choose our places of birth, let us choose where we can live.

    Inhuman, inhuman scream.

    青ざめた太陽と
    青ざめた僕達は
    透明の夢を見る
    いつだってそうだった
    くだんねぇオレだって
    くだんねぇ君だって
    白鳥になれそうな
    ただそんな気がするんだ

    愛されず生きてきた
    僕達はしくじった
    でも何か今日はさぁ
    許される様なさぁ
    くだんねぇオレだって
    くだんねぇ君だって
    死ねないよな 何か今
    そんな気がするんだ
    I can see the new sunset
    You can see the new sunset
    そんな風に 嘘ぶいて
    生きれそうな気がするんだ
    錠剤 噛み砕いて
    君は 記憶喪失者
    錠剤 噛み砕いて
    君は ミルク飲み干した
    錠剤 噛み砕いて
    君と 手を繋いで
    錠剤 噛み砕いて
    くだんねぇオレだって
    くだんねぇ君だって
    白鳥になれそうな
    ただそんな気がするんだ
    I can see the new sunset
    You can see the new sunset
    そんな風に 嘘ぶいて
    生きれそうな気がするんだ
    今日は何かさぁ
    ねぇ今日は何かさぁ
    あぁ今日は何かさぁ
    ねぇ今日は何かさぁ

    With the pale sun We, who are pale, Dreaming of Invisibility It was always like that Don’t be foolish Even you I think I can become a swan I just feel like that

    I have lived without being loved We messed up But what about today? It seems to be forgiven. Don’t be foolish Even you I can’t die, something now That’s how I feel

    I can see the new sunset
    You can see the new sunset

    Lie like that I feel like I can live Tablets Chew and crush You are amnesiac Tablets Chew and crush You drank all the milk Tablets Chew and crush Holding hands with you Tablets Chew and crush Don’t be foolish Even you I think I can become a swan I just feel like that

    I can see the new sunset
    You can see the new sunset

    Lie like that I feel like I can live What is it today? Hey, what is it today? Ah, what is it today? Hey, what is it today?

  • song,  Uncategorized

    SOUNDTRACK: Unmei no Akai Ito by Koshitomo & Kisetsu wa Tsugitsugi Shindeiku by Amazarashi

    Soundtrack to A Paranormal Yakuza Duet: Secrets & Sake by C.J. Ravenna

    Red String of Destiny by Koshitomo for a book about fated mates, a cruel world, and a courage to hope for tomorrow.

    Blue Sky Sun Let’s go fishing today
    The usual park with a large pond
    I’m not concentrating.
    Hey God, I’m going to use a special thread today.
    I want to believe in the red thread of fate
    And I’m waiting for you here today
    The magic of the future at the end of the thread
    The pond is sparkling in the sun
    But the world isn’t that sweet.

    I want to believe in the red thread of fate
    And today I was a little hopeful about the future

    Soundtrack to A Paranormal Yazuka Duet: Curses & Kitsune by C.J. Ravenna

    Seasons Die One After Another by Amazarashi for a book about shedding the past, embracing the future, and living in the moment.

    Dear My Loathsome Past,
    to you I offer this poem of farewell!

    I have cast away the remains of these days
    that can’t get any worse, these most terrible dreams even if it kills me.

    For in the next life,
    a flower will bloom to tell you a poem of transition;

    We spend some time wondering
    if we should go or head on back.
    I’m sure we’ll face hardship…
    but after the slightest hesitation,
    we straighten up and head onward.

    That’s right, we have to go!
    Even with nothing, we have to go on living!

  • song,  Uncategorized

    SOUNDTRACK: Bloodstream by Stateless & Sore wa Matta Betsu no Ohanashi by Amazarashi

    Soundtrack to The Vampire’s Club 6 by X. Aratare

    Bloodstream by Stateless for a book about the much-awaited turning of the innocent boy into a vampire.

    The spaces in between
    Two minds and all the places they have been
    The spaces in between
    I try to put my finger on it
    I try to put my finger on it

    I think I might’ve inhaled you
    I can feel you behind my eyes
    You’ve gotten into my bloodstream
    I can feel you flowing in me

    Soundtrack to The Vampire’s Club 7 by X. Aratare

    Tomorrow, Well That’s Another Story by Amazarashi for a book about vampires, witches, a war ending and eternity beginning for a boy and his Wolf.

    Two of one, and they call out to each other as one
    Two people sharing a walk, one step at a time
    In a world without grief, sleep, sleep
    Tomorrow, well that’s another story
    The painful things, crying, and laughing
    Turn red
    And as sunset falls
    We all become red
    Good people, bad people, and angry people
    Turn red
    And as sunset falls

  • quote,  Uncategorized

    Wake up and look me in the eyes again
    I need to feel your hands upon my face
    Words can be like knives
    They can cut you open
    And then the silence surrounds you
    And haunts you

    I think I might’ve inhaled you
    I can feel you behind my eyes
    You’ve gotten into my bloodstream
    I can feel you flowing in me

    Words can be like knives
    They can cut you open
    And then the silence surrounds you
    And haunts you

    I think I might’ve inhaled you
    I can feel you behind my eyes
    You’ve gotten into my bloodstream
    I can feel you flowing in me

    The spaces in between
    Two minds and all the places they have been
    The spaces in between
    I try to put my finger on it
    I try to put my finger on it

    I think I might’ve inhaled you
    I can feel you behind my eyes
    You’ve gotten into my bloodstream
    I can feel you flowing in me

    I think I might’ve inhaled you
    I can feel you behind my eyes
    You’ve gotten into my bloodstream
    I can feel you flowing in me

    あれから僕ら幾星霜

    始まりが遠くに霞む

    国道の朝焼け

    浅虫の黄昏

    辛い事 泣いた事 笑った事

    一つが二つあって 手を結んだら一つで

    二人が分かち合って 一つずつの夢

    悲しみのない世界で 眠って 眠って

    明日の事とか それはまた別のお話

    冷たい雪の粒が

    思い出を積み上げる夜

    君は優しく笑う

    春を待つ想望

    ストーブがしんと鳴る部屋の中

    一つが二つあって 名を呼び合えば一つで

    二人が分かち合って 一歩ずつの歩み

    悲しみのない世界で 眠って 眠って

    明日の事とか それはまた別のお話

    辛い事も 泣いた事も 笑った事も

    赤くなる

    夕焼けがやってくる頃に

    僕らは皆赤くなる

    いい人も 悪い人も 怒った人も

    赤くなる

    夕焼けがやってくる頃に

    等しく皆赤くなる

    一つが二つあって 笑い合えたら一つで

    二人が分かち合って たった一つの願い

    悲しみのない世界で 眠って 眠って

    明日の事とか それはまた別のお話

    It’s been so much time for us since then

    The beginning looms in the distance

    Morning glow of the highway

    Asamushi in the twilight

    Painful things, crying, and laughing

    Two of one, holding hands they become one

    Two people sharing their dreams one by one

    In a world without grief, sleep, sleep

    Tomorrow, well that’s another story

    Flakes of cold snow

    The night that piles up old memories

    You smile gently

    Yearning, waiting for spring

    The stove within that room of silence

    Two of one, and they call out to each other as one

    Two people sharing a walk, one step at a time

    In a world without grief, sleep, sleep

    Tomorrow, well that’s another story

    The painful things, crying, and laughing

    Turn red

    And as sunset falls

    We all become red

    Good people, bad people, and angry people

    Turn red

    And as sunset falls

    All equally become red

    Two of one, and they smile together

    Two people sharing just a single wish

    In a world without grief, sleep, sleep

    Tomorrow, well that’s another story