• manga,  Uncategorized

    MANGA: Bitter Cigar

    Bitter Cigar – Panda/Kumaneko

    Go to work, go home. Go to work, go home. That’s the daily routine of 26-year-old Wataru Toyohashi. One night, he heard a terrible groan coming from next door, so he rushed over, only to find his neighbor, Takatsuki, on the verge of tears and slumped on the floor. The reason? Hunger. Takatsuki said he forgets to eat when he gets caught up in his work, which he does from home. Toyohashi, unable to ignore the situation, decided to treat Takatsuki to dinner since he was in the middle of cooking anyway. Overjoyed by the simple home-cooked meal, Takatsuki exclaimed, “I want to eat this every day!” And that’s how their weekly weekend dinner parties started. At the small dining table with Takatsuki and his own two cats, Toyohashi’s days change bit by bit…

    Bitter Cigar is a gentle tale of home‑cooked meals and good company.

    Toyohashi, a game developer, discovers his neighbor Takatsuki weak with hunger and begins feeding him. When Takatsuki delights in his cooking, they establish a weekly dinner routine. Toyohashi finds Takatsuki irresistibly cute, and his neighbor is thrilled to hear it.

    One day, however, Toyohashi bumps into Takatsuki in the hallway and is surprised when Takatsuki avoids him. Embarrassed by his disheveled appearance, Takatsuki grows increasingly awkward about meeting again. Yet Toyohashi, invested in their blossoming friendship, does his damnedest to reconnect.

    The story shines with beautiful non‑binary representation. Takatsuki, with long hair and soft, loose clothing, enjoys being cute without wanting to be a girl, simply loving what he loves. His novel Bitter Cigar reflects the forbidden things he longed for growing up.

    Told mostly from Toyohashi’s perspective, the narrative captures how he slowly falls for Takatsuki, wooing him with delicious food and heartfelt praise. It’s ridiculously sweet, swoony, and pure squee! The subtle reveal of Toyohashi’s sexuality ties everything together like the perfect cherry on top.

    Overall, a pure, uplifting comfort-food connection!


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    REVIEW: Ruthless by L. Eveland

    The Ferrymen: Ruthless – L. Eveland

    Falling for my target was never part of the plan. Neither was killing my mentor.

    LUKA
    I was created to be the perfect weapon with forty-eight confirmed eliminations and counting. I’m the best in the business.

    But my newest target is threatening to destroy everything. Who puts a hit out on a therapist? His biggest crime is talking to his plants every morning.

    Now, instead of taking the shot, I’ve broken my contract to protect him and every Ferryman in North America is out to claim the bounty on my head.

    We’ve got one chance at survival, and it means facing the man who spent twenty-six years molding me into his perfect weapon. Prometheus might have named himself after a god, but I know he’s just a man. And all men can die.

    VINCENT
    I knew I was in trouble when he showed up on my doorstep covered in blood and demanded I come with him.

    Now, hiding in an underground world built for professional killers, he’s my only chance of survival.

    Luka is dangerous, damaged, and devastatingly attractive. I should run. Instead, I can’t help but try to heal the man beneath the scars.

    As assassins hunt us without reprieve, I’m learning just how far I’ll go to protect the broken man I never should have survived, let alone fallen for.

    I believe monsters are made, not born. Maybe they can be unmade by love.

    RUTHLESS is the first book in The Ferryman series, a dark MM romance series about a secret society of assassins and the men who fall for them.


    Ruthless is the first book in The Ferrymen, an assassin romance series by L. Eveland. Each installment follows a different Ferryman on a mission that unexpectedly leads them to love.

    Luca, tasked with killing trauma therapist Vincent, becomes increasingly fascinated instead, spending three weeks secretly observing him. When his boss Prometheus loses patience and assigns the job to someone else, Luca is forced to act. He kills the rival assassin and abducts Vincent for protection, as the hit on him is now open to all.

    Vincent, stunned to discover his gorgeous new patient is a killer, is thrust into a hidden world of assassins governed by strict laws, hierarchies, and Greek‑mythology‑inspired customs. Together, he and Luca seek sanctuary at the Acropolis, neutral ground where no blood may be spilled, while unraveling why Prometheus is determined to destroy an ordinary therapist.

    The chemistry between assassin and healer is explosive, but intimacy terrifies Luca, deeming himself too broken. Haunted by a twin sister he couldn’t save and years of abuse under Prometheus, he battles 26 years of conditioning. With Vincent’s unwavering care, Luca begins to reclaim his humanity, and perhaps even envision a future with the doctor.

    I love the Ferrymen world! With nods to John Wick, assassins were paid in special coins, neutral zones were sacrosant, tribunals and judges deal with those who broke contracts. Prometheus, director of the North American region, is an extremely manipulative bastard whose long‑game schemes drive the conflict.

    Plucked from war‑torn Serbia and groomed to obey, Luca’s fraught relationship with his mentor adds turmoil and darkness. While I expected a full circle moment for Luca, I was still shocked when Prometheus dropped his bomb.

    Luca is both lethal and vulnerable, cocky enough to call himself a sex god, yet desperate for emotional validation. Right from the opening scene, his obsession with Vincent is deliciously thrilling, their dynamic a balance of power and healing.

    Vincent helps connect Luca to the boy he once was. He’s a natural carer, whether it’s plants or his patients and his loyalty and devotion to Luca was a ray of sunshine in the murk. His fierce defense of the assassin in front of the tribunal and his graceful acceptance of his place in this shadowy world made me appreciate the good doc even more.

    The writing tends to be repetitive, with multiple mentions of 26 years and sexual abuse, as well as memories retold several times, making the book unnecessarily long. Content warning: grooming, sexual abuse, physical abuse, PTSD, trauma, and violence.

    Ruthless is a story of reclaiming humanity and forging healthy connections. Fierce, angsty and moving, overall, a testament to the power of empathy in this cutthroat world.

    Rating:
    4 Stars – minor quibbles but I loved it to bits

    Soundtrack: Kintsugi
    Artist: The Bottomless
    Album: Kintsugi


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    SOUNDTRACK: Kintsugi by The Bottomless

    Soundtrack to The Ferrymen: Ruthless by L. Eveland

    Kintsugi by The Bottomless for a book about hurts, fractures, and healing.

    Love the way how you take the broken
    pieces of my soul
    make them glow so bright

    At the surface, gasping for air
    It’s me all along
    Not too far gone
    The pain of yesterday all over my face

    Thought to hide it away
    (Away)
    Instead I wear it
    It’s okay to break
    Just let it
    fall apart In those mistakes
    turn into ar
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  • quote,  Uncategorized

    Love the way how you take the broken
    pieces of my soul
    make them glow so bright

    I don’t know what was stopping me
    Knew what the talk would be
    inner feelings float up out of the water

    At the surface, gasping for air
    It’s me all along
    Not too far gone
    The pain of yesterday all over my face

    Thought to hide it away
    (Away)
    Instead I wear it
    It’s okay to break
    Just let it
    fall apart In those mistakes
    turn into art

    Love the way how you take the broken
    pieces of my SOUL
    make them GLOW so bright

    Thought to hide it away
    (Away)
    Instead I wear it
    It’s okay to break
    Just let it
    fall apart, In those mistakes
    turn into art

    Stronger grows
    the beating heart
    Embrace changing weather
    You’re in the eye of the storm
    Peace engulfed in grief

    Thought to hide it away
    Away
    Instead I wear it
    It’s okay to break
    Just let it
    fall apart, In those mistakes
    turn into art

    Stronger grows
    the beating heart
    Embrace changing weather
    You’re in the eye of the storm
    Peace engulfed in grief