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MANGA: Drama Mitai na Koi Janakute mo

Drama Mitai na Koi Janakute mo – Suzuki Hako
Despite his popularity with guys, Sudou Ginji, a gay writer never had a serious partner and only has had ONSs and FWBs.Now that he is almost 30, he’s determined to retire from his playboy lifestyle and find someone to have a serious relationship. However, one night, his roommate Minamoto Chihiro, whom he thought to be straight asked advice on how to be skilled in gay s**?! Things should’ve gone well if he just gave what the other person expected from him, but somehow it didn’t go that smoothly.
A writer who wants to stop being a playboy x the older roommate who would like to give away his virginity. An awkward love story of a guy in his 30s with no skills when it comes to romance!
You know how sometimes an MM romance novel borrows from BL manga? Well, this BL manga felt a lot like a contemporary MM romance book.
Even If It’s Not a Dramatic Love is a younger seme, older uke, first-time gay romance between roommates Ginji, a writer, and the older Chihiro, currently on unpaid leave. After learning that Ginji is gay, Chihiro asked the more experienced younger man to teach him gay sex.
As these things usually go, the more they practice, the more their feelings start to become apparent. And so their relationship went from purely physical to complicated to desperate.
In keeping with the title, this manga is deeply rooted in everyday life. The vibe is serious, peppered with humor and derpy expressions. We see the usual BL tropes and stereotypical characters, but the execution felt somewhat realistic.
For one, Ginji is openly gay, and the opening scene is him in bed with one of his FWB. Then we see him pensively going about his life, tired of hookups and wanting a lasting relationship. He’s described by the mangaka as serious but flirty.
Chihiro is excitable and earnest, an older man who wants to explore his sexuality, but his initial forays were disasters. As a result, sex was a sensitive topic for him, so it was a relief to find an experienced partner patient enough to teach him.
The MCs talked about what sex and intimacy mean to them until miscommunication throws a wedge between them. We’re not without drama because we get a fabulous confession scene at the bar!
This is a story of two people figuring out what they want. It’s simple and low-key; its charm lies in the MCs’ dynamics, and the endearing way their connection evolved from practice to absolutely feeling it!
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REVIEW: His Bane by Courtney W. Dixon

The District: His Bane by Courtney W. Dixon
PLEASE READ THE BLURB AND WARNINGS IF YOU’RE SENSITIVE TO TRIGGERS! And please, please be careful of spoilers and giving away endings of books. Use spoiler tags.
He is mine. I don’t care how long it takes. I will have Malik Amin.
Sullivan Beauchamp
Some people call me a monster. A psychopath. As if I care what others think. So what if I relish in the mayhem of slaughter or enjoy feeling the life blink out of someone? I am who I am. It was Malik who eventually brought me to his home and trained me to hone my skills to work under him as an assassin. Malik Amin is my equal, and he will be mine in all ways as soon as I can chip away at his ridiculous and completely unnecessary self-loathing.
Malik Amin
Sully lost everything as a teenager on my order. When I found him covered in blood four years later, I should have put him down, knowing what he was. Instead, I took him in to train him. It works for us until he wants me more than as a mentor. I cannot allow it. But if Sully is anything, he is a master at persuasiveness and discovering my weaknesses.
Reading in order will add more pleasure to the reading experience since some of the books end in a series cliffhanger. But they can technically be read as standalones.
CW: internalized homophobia of MC, murder of family, off-page molestation and rape, psychopathy, murder, torture, consensual sexual mutilation between MCs, betrayal.
His Bane is the second book of the dark assassin romance series, The District, by Courtney W. Dixon. This is a found family of queer assassins founded by Malik Amin and Sid Virgil that takes any jobs, no questions asked. The only rule is no hits on children.
Sullivan Beauchamp is the only survivor of an assassination of his family when he was 12 years old. He was put in foster care only to be sexually abused by his foster father. When the abusive asshole killed Sully’s favorite foster brother, Sully took immense pleasure in ending the bastard. While on the run, he was tracked down by Malik and taken under the older man’s wing.
Malik has been monitoring Sully since he went in foster care, but not close enough to know about his home life. Noticing the teen’s psychopathy and his potential, he offered the 16-year-old board, lodging, and training. He might have gotten more than he had bargained for because Sully kept pushing his buttons and pursued the older man with the kind of obsessive-possessive determination only psychopaths possess.
I loved Sully from the get-go! With so many bad things done to him at a young age, from his cold, harsh father to the abusive foster parent, Sully learned to rely on his instincts and intellect, harnessing his rage as a physical force to defeat bullies and bad guys. His favorite weapon is his 25,000$ knife gifted to him by Malik. His favorite music genre is disco.
Sully is immensely self-aware, constantly evaluating himself and learning about emotions and relationships so he can give Malik what he needs. He doesn’t expect other people to understand him. But far from angsting about it, I loved how unapologetic Sully is about who he is. Malik gets him, and that’s all Sully cares about.
Malik is of Syrian descent and a former member of a Syrian gang. The man is 19 years older than Sully, and unlike his self-assured protege, Malik is a mass of self-pity and woes rooted in childhood trauma.
It’s one of the reasons he keeps putting Sully at arm’s length, even though he wants the younger man. He’s also carrying the guilt from a big secret that he should have revealed to his mentee early on, but he didn’t, so it came to bite him in the ass in the form of a Sully meltdown.
Compared to the first book, His Death Bringer, this is a tad less disturbing but still as dark. Please heed the content warnings, especially if blood play is not your thing, because Malik and Sully are heavily into that.
This is not a romance of warm fuzzies. This is a complicated relationship between a traumatized older man who’s touch-starved and hungry for affection, even if he has a hard time admitting it, and a psychopath who doesn’t feel many emotions. This is a slow-burn of 13 stubborn years and a hot/cold dance of one step forward, two steps back, where the hurt comfort comes with a knife and scars are tokens of love.
Sully did all the heavy lifting while Malik is mired in what Sully calls “pathetic self-pity.” There were hardly any private interactions that didn’t devolve to sex, while Malik hopes they can be a normal couple that is more than just sex, a.k.a. the old man needed hugs and cuddles.
There were hardly any proper communications. I say this one is on Malik, who has his electric fences up while Sully was asking Luca (His Death Bringer) for advice and reading romance novels, trying to grasp the mechanics of being in love and the to-dos in a relationship. Our boy was really trying, bless his psychopathic heart!
Something to watch out for is the content-warning confrontation scene between Malik and Sully. It was nothing short of powerful and cathartic! Sully’s jumble of emotions was intensely palpable, and his breakdown was heartwrenching. Malik finally pulled his head out of his ass, but still left me partly unconvinced.
So I didn’t squee, but I rooted hard for Sully. His growth and resilience as a character, his single-minded determination to go after what he wants, and his willingness to go beyond his “limitations” as a psychopath for Malik are what made the book 4 stars for me.
His Bane is a story of kindred souls, warring feelings, and lifelong devotion. It is not a fairytale romance, but love at knife’s edge, painful, intense, and all-consuming.
Rating:
4 Stars – minor quibbles but I loved it to bitsSoundtrack: Knife’s Edge
Artist: Tiger Army
Album: V…_P.S.
I’m ridiculously thrilled about how spot on the book model is! Red hair, copper penny eyes, and all black suit: that’s our Sully!
The District is best enjoyed in chronological order. Meet Luca, survivor, bunny cuddler, and sweetest soul ever, and his dark angel, Dante, in His Death Bringer.
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SOUNDTRACK: Knife’s Edge by Tiger Army
Soundtrack to The District: His Bane by Courtney W. Dixon
Knife’s Edge by Tiger Army for a book about love, obssession, and vows carved into skin.
Alone – tormented by the love that owns my soul
I feel the loss of everything
Control – it’s so hard not to lose in this life, oh
Luck in love’s a silver blake ’causeMy heart is, it’s on a knife’s edge over you
Stiletto that your hand has pushed right through
And the blood pours, but my love does not run out
So tell me what’s it all about -
Alone – tormented by the love that owns my soul
I feel the loss of everything
Control – it’s so hard not to lose in this life, oh
Luck in love’s a silver blake ’cause
My heart is, it’s on a knife’s edge over you
Stiletto that your hand has pushed right through
And the blood pours, but my love does not run out
So tell me what’s it all about
And so – vendetta inked into my skin
Black block – of a coffin coverup
No hearts or banners with your name
One tear – one drop of blood to leave you there
And my heart is, it’s on a knife’s edge over you
Stiletto that your hand has pushed right through
And the blood pours, but my love does not run out
So tell me what’s it all about
And now – I’ve made it out alive but barely
And – I’ve got the scars to show for it
But then – here’s a new chance to fall in love again
With someone new but is the blade her friend?
And my heart is, it’s on a knife’s edge over you
Stiletto that your hand has pushed right through
And the blood pours, but my love does not run out
So tell me what’s it all about
And my heart is, it’s on a knife’s edge over you
Stiletto that your hand has pushed right through
And the blood pours, but my love does not run out
So tell me what’s it all about -
MOVIE FEATURE: Sauna
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RELEASE BLITZ: Worth The Wait by C.F. White (Excerpt & Giveaway)

















